perfect imperfections

it gets hard to breathe sometimes...
I don't know if i can get "fixed"
I've been broken so long and i've grown so used to my perfect imperfections
When i turn myself inward and see the image i reflect
It's not me... it's just not me!
Or is it?
Everyday tasks are gettin harder to perform
I know, i know that i'm deviating from the standard of the norm
Although it takes more muscles to frown than to smile, A smile now hurts my face
Simple miniscule things, an elated emotion negativity gladly takes it's place (or... gladly and willingly takes it's place)
I was once told that happiness is truly just a state of mind
If that was the case, my mind confines and redesignes this cryptic message just trying to find
An inbetween, a common ground, some kind of substance standing
But it don't.
It just haunts me, steadily confronts me, to say it clear and bluntly, it f**ks me over just because???!!
Not sure why though! Don't know why
Tears burn my eyes, my soul, my heart, my nose
My spirit, my pride, my self esteem, it breaks my stride
And i'm f**kin tired!
I keep hearing, "Your tough", "Your gonna make it thru it just fine", "Your stronger than you think"
Honestly i'm not
I'm not tough, these developing situations instantly pop out at me like poloraid instant pictures
It's no need for negatives because i harbor plenty of negatives on my own
Tough doesn't mean running away or pushing to the side
Tough is dealin wit that problem head on and refuse to let it ride
It fights, i don't
I succumb
I feel doomed before i think things thru so, so how do you think i'll make it thru just fine?
Just fine? Just fine?
Explain that to me, Just fine...
This emotional rollercoaster from hell, twist and turns every angle and aspect i think i can make progress with
So really i'm not gonna be fine, what you're speaking is pure bullshit
Be me,
See this jaded image...
I'm not going to be fine and you know it
Neither ama i stronger than i think
I don't think, i know i'm feeble
I don't think, i know i'm damaged
I don't think, i know i'm beyond the point of no return
I don't think, i KNOW that i'm far from strong
Scared, afraid, paranoid and anxious is more like it
So as you can tell the way i think i am
My thoughts hold no weight, lost
I'm damaged goods, completely misunderstood and i'd change it if i could
But i can't
I know, i know my thinking seems irrational to you
But this is all i have, all i got to hold on to
Not sure on how to let go, i got to let you know
It's just how i feel
Sometimes i wish i could just get rid of my senses
My senses which links my emotions to my heart, which links to my mind
Which controls everything i do
Involuntary emotional expression is the charge that fits the crime
My life is so much more than this, but it's only pain i see attached to this outward reflection
I've been broken so long i've grown so used to my perfect imperfections....

owo big poem but nice one again friend.thanks for share with us.

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this was deep

u cud feel how she felt from reading the poem

wow, great poem

thnkx for sharing

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looong but cute poem .... touching ...... tnkx for sharing