I always used to take a nick... "Internal`pain"... I am not so used to share my pains.. so kept it somewhere in my heart..
Today its time to share.. I might feel better afterwrds or may be purono gha notun kore chara dibe.. but hey like i give a rat ass..
yeh choto bela thekei ami daanpite.. amarr duto priyo bashosthan holo pukur ar gach.. banor+kumir= me. ami tokhon shanti nagar thaktam.. or naam chilo natasha.. amra badmingtong kheltam onek raat porjonto.. aar o obak hoye dekhto khela.. ghumato na.. mather pasher barir tin talai thakto ora.. ami badmingtong khelai areate motamuti bhalo naam korechilam.. friender modde amar and amar friend juliouser moddded compitation hoto... amra botro boro bet dhor kheltam jitle ajke shob frinder baily road free.. je harbe she khoroch korbe.. anyways ekdin gutiguti paye bikel belai dekhi mathe duklo.. ar or chachato bhai auntu ke amar kache pathalo.. she want to learn badmingtong.. I agreed.. she was so cute and innocent.. shama meye.. onek mayabi.. na korte parini.. mojar kotha holo amar arear shob meyerai amake voi peto =( .. cause ai maramari kortam beshi anywhere anytime.. jai hok ami oke amar opsite rekhe khatalam.. ore kichu trick shikhalam then I went to smoke some weed.. pasher incomplete appartment a.. ek friend ke diye gelam oke shikhanor jonne.. ami smoke korte korte oder khela dekhchilam.. oi friend ta arek parar oto close chilam na.. o dekhlam natashar shathe seriously khela shuru kore diyeche instead of teaching.. hothat kore he smashed and the feather went on straight her chest.. it was pretty amberassing I felt like jump down from 3 stairs.. some how i controlmyself.. niche gelam .. and oi frinder shathe khela shuru korlam.. 5 minutes a 3 ta smash korlam.. but buke lagate parleo or jekhane laganor icche parini finally i hit on his face with the feather.. and thats it.. i started beating him with my racket.. untill it was broke.. amar friendra eshe amake atkalo... taar 5 din por shantinagar tournament of badmingtong.. er semi final.. me andmy teacher has to play against each other.. tushar bhai amar thekeonek experience and bhalo player.. amader score jokhon 9-4. my was 4.. i heard someone was screaming a girl.. i look around and found her in a corner watching my game.. I got some sort of power.. i beat tushar bhai went to final.. in the min of time.. that friend of mine.. amare ole kire oi meyere dekhe tor power ashlo naki.. oi meyer breast gula bhalo ache asholei boro boro.. IHAD A BLACK OUT.. I became blind I dnt know what happened.. finally i found myself sorrounded by so many people beating me and found my friend bloody.. and a stone on my hand which was bloody as well.. ami or matha fatiye dei.. erpor or boro bhai and friendra mile amake prochur mare untill my real friends and tushar bjais friends came and rescue me.. i was in the hospitol.. a clinic.. in iskaton road... naamta bhule gechi...next day karo kannar shibde ghum bhange.. shorire prochondo betha 2 ta stab kheyechi.. paye and arm a.. stitch kora hoyeche.. dekhlam shei maya bhora mukh khani..couldnt stop myself.. started to cry.. she wasmad at me.. why i had to fight cause of her.. I said i dnt know.. someone who means a lot to me... I dnt know what it is.. she kissed me all over my face.. whispered she loves me.. i couldnt answer .. cause i didnt know whether i loveher or not.. erpor theke oke ek glace dekhar jonne ami raat ke din kore ditam.. ekta incmplete buildiner pach talai kurnish a boshe thaktamm.. kokhon o janalai ba barandai ashbe.. O o thakto onek khontarpor bati nibiye shuye porto ar ami lullabi ghaitam.. shish bajatam...erpor ek shomoi ghumiye portam at the edge of the taress.. shokale uthe majemaje nijeke abishkar kortam eto kache .. pa shunne jhulano arekti goran dile pach tala theke shoja dariye thaka roder upor.. but who cares .. i didnt..I used to call her.. talk to her for long time.. then the nightmare began.. I tried so hard not to come to usa.. my 1st flight was february 8th 2001.. ami tar ager din auntuder(or chachato bhai) er bashai boshe cha ar or ammu payesh redhe diyechilo ota khacchilam... khir amar khubbi favorite...jai hok er modde shuni hoichoi.. ber hoye dekhi george namer ek choto bhaike atleast 20 ta chele pitacche.. atkate gelam nijeo mair khelam.. ore save korlam but puropurikorte parini they stabed him real bad.. that night mathai ki chaplo.. we went 3 different house.. stabbed three of the kids who came to my area and stabbed george.. next day b4 my flight I went to meet her .. chade jacche er modde char pash theke DV eshe ghire fello.. 2 hour ditention.. koshto hoi ekhono chinta korle.. how they beat me.. pathetic bangaly police.. for 25000 taka.. kauke ebhabe marte pare ora.. obak lage.. next day they bailed me from teh court.. I camr home.. she didnt call or come.. and never did ever.. untill I came to us.. I called her house her sister said she is dying.. doesnt eat.. no sleep takiye thake oi appartmenter chader dike.. kokhon ami ashbo gaan gabo shish bajabo.. ar o ghumabe. . I spoke to her.. only one sentance she said.. I am happy you went far away.. started to hating you.. you never cared about my love only ur stubbornness.. ekdinmore pore thakte ..aamar ar keu thakto na.. just hate you.. dont call me ever aain.. i dont wanna worry about you or cry anymore... and hang up on me.. I carried the pain in me.. I changed myself but never got her back.. I am not the kid aleaf anymore.. but she never came back.. she hates me..
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| CorE, its really Touchy.. Amar mon ta asholei kharap hoye gelo...and Sorry about what happened!!  Pяιη¢єѕѕ Pяσνα    | |||||||||||||||||
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| aleaf  ..donno wht to say ..amnitei tomar mon kharap dekle ami worried hoi ki korbo ki korbo .. eta pore anek kharap lgache ..asole sobar life ai amon kichu thake ...ja amra anek chai but peye o pai na ...ami kono din vabi nai j amar first love wud just b a past n a story ...but akhon asolei seta past n nothng but a story anekk mon kharap kora kichu kotha kichu moments ..but some times i love to rememer den how ever it brings tear on my eyes ... §wëèt Îññô¢êñt Åñgêl  | |||||||||||||||||||
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| Core aka Aleif .. Belive me or not, I felt really very sorry for you .. It really touches my heart and at the end amar chokhe o pani aschilo .. Really very sorry for you bro .. Ok, Jokhon CorE tar story share kore fello FULL , ami o kore feli .. asole amar ta onek boro kahini , tobuo dekhi short kore koto tuku bolte pari .. CorE er moton ami o skool life e maramari kortam onekk .. College e jeidin uthbo, seidin theke shuru hoi college er last farewell porjonto , Amake sob meyera dekhlei bolto " oi de heartthrobe  " .. asole , maramari kortam thiki, But bhodro chilam onek :> .. maramari kortam only 1tai karone, jodi kaur bhul dekhtam , take warn kortam. Warn na manle direct action ..to tomader to bolchi ami je raisar sathe amar 1st year of college ei somporko hoi .. asole 6 months er mathay .. o tokhon 8 e porto .. and or 1ta bhai chilo je porto 10 e, I mean 1 year junior from me .. to Raisa amar ar or love affair , jare parto tare bolto  .. Jeikhane ami bolchilam je please eita temon kauke bolo na tomar friends chara .. ar bolaro ba ki dorkar ? But, se aje baje sobai ke bole pura skool choray fello .. Sir and Madam ra sobai jene gelo .. And ami pura shorome sir der sathe tokhon kotha bolte partam na ..ok, Sir madam ra jokhon janlo, Tar BHAI ki bad thake ? LoL , yes .. tar bhai o janlo ..Tar bhai ek din amader skool chuti jokhon holo , tokhon amar kase ese amake bollo, UPOL BHAI APNI AMAR BONER SATHE KOTHA BOLBENNA AR AND RAISA AR APNAR SATHE SOMPORKO RAKHBE NA.. Hen ten onek kisu bollo .. Ami shudhu shunlam , And take ekta kothai bollam " Tomar Boner ijjot nosto korar moton kaj kono somoy korbana RIFAT" .. Ok, ekhon ami ei kotha ta bolchi karon, o kisu bachelor polapain er sathe cholto jei gula chilo carrecter less. so ei kotha bollam .. Ok fine, 3-4 din gelo, raisa'r sathe as usual amar kotha hoiii , so 4 no: din e se bollo tumi HARA te jeo na , I mean amra je place e khelte jetam I MEAN BANGALI AREA jeta , oitar nam holo " HARA " , to ami bollam kano ? O bollo jeo na .. ami bollam amar kisu kaj ase + ajke sir er kase pora ase .. O tobuo CAUSE ta bollo na .. to, Ami gelam .. Maghrib er ajan er somoy dekhi Rifat tar class er 5 jon ke niye asche amake HIT korar jonno .. 1st e ami dekhe to ami ready ;D .. But 5 joner bhoi chilo arki .. tobuo ami chinta korinai kisui .. Rifat esei amake dhakka marlo 1st . and ami kotha batra na bole 5 jon ke ek nagare mara shuru korlam .. Police aslo, amader full 6 jonke nia gelo .. ami chara pelam 2 din por .. karon 5 jon i roktakto hoisilo .. SAUDI ARAB e <censored><censored><censored><censored>IN ekta niom je ROKTO PORLE VICTIM ke station theke chara hobe na .. Bhaggo krome amar choto bhai ra ese bole bollo je we saw those pplz start fighting with upol bhai .. tokhon ami chara pelam .. amar just hat kete gesilo konoi er dik theke .. ar baki sob koitar i hat bhangse , konoi bhangse , matha tatha kete gese .. asole ami maramarir somoy ekta ROD peysilam niche BHAGGO CROME .. so oita dia marchilam sob polapain der .. er moddhe oder ekta amake CRICKET BAT diye bari marsilo arki .. Jai hok, Dad mom janlo amar .. chetlo onek kano maramari hoise hen ten .. to ami bollam khela nia .. orao same oder bap ma ke bollo khela nia .. to after some days Raisa called me , and says " tumi amar bhai ke marle kano ? tomar sathe amar somporko ses " ei hen ten bolar por , ami bollam " So, Fine I dont give e DAMN guts about ur brother and u" .. tokhon eita bole fone rekhe dilam .. er porer din i se phone kore sorry bollo , aro ki bollo bhule gesi .. To RIFAT chup kore chilo na , o sei BACHELOR dangi baz der kase gelo for HELP .. I mean amake marar jonno .. Kintu oi Bachelor gula sahos pacchilo na, cause ami jei gang er chele chilam .. oi gang pura riyadh er nam kora ekta gang. oder sathe keu iccha korleo palla ney na .. to oi bachelor polapain amar boro bhai ke gia bollo ei kotha .. I mean gang er boro bhai arki .. amar boro bhai patta dey nai tader .. So, eder moddhe ekta bachelor Raisa der basay fone kora shuru korlo and RIFAT er sathe kotha bola shuru korlo .. Rifat theke Raisa , Raisa er sathe kotha bole BAIRE choraito Je RAISA IS IN LOVE WITH HIM. hen ten onek kotha chorato .. to, eita amar kane aslo and ami oi bachelor keo warn korlam .. But Bachelor ta bollo je , " KAN TOMAR DARLING REI NA KORO AMAR LOGE KOTHA KOITE ?! " .. Ami Raisa ke mana korlam onek bar  .. But still sey tar sathe kotha bolto .. er por pura bachelor circle e nam hoilo je , Raisa is in love with that fukin bachelor baten .. Or bhai er kane gelo , BUT or DARPOK bhai, kicchu korlo na .. oder H.S.C ses ar or bhai chole gelo BD .. or Boner kotha ektuo chinta korlo na .. Ami ar koto tuku korbo ? ami to iccha korleo oi bachelor re marte parina .. Ami ekdin attempt nia gelam , jai hok ore maira ajke tare fokir banay area te bosabo ei NIYOT e .. But, or kase jawar por , o amare je RECORDING shunalo , jeibhabe or sathe raisa kotha bolchilo , ami nije shuneo SHOKED ! .. And aro ki ! oi Baten er kase Raisa er sob PICTURE ase .. Raisa oke Picture o dito ..Then ami oke er porer din phone kore or sathe all Relation cut kore dilam .. Akhon ar eisob maramari , kichui korina .. chup chap thaki .. age theke onek chup chap hoi gesi .. baire kom jai .. gele just kajer jonno jai .. thats all .. tar por basay ese ektu net e. ei .. amar life e amar friend ONLY akhon 2 jon .. 1 NET and 2 CIGERETTE .. Parents ra janena ami cigerette khai .. and janbe na asa kori .. Bas dukkho laglo , meye tar sathe amar 2 years relationship chilo .. kintu , meye ta flirt korte gia or full life ta nosto korlo .. Or baba and ma sobai janlo .. or skool bondo hoi gelo .. Eto tuku jani ami .. ekhon ki BD te chole gese naki oita ami jani na . janteo chaina .. karon amar life e eto boro dukkho ami painai jeita se amar piche korlo .. Sorry friends .. onek kotha bole fellam .. amar moner jid , dukkho sob ak sathe hoi tomader bole fellam .. karon, ei net e amar bonduha tomrai .. ar keu temon amar friends nai net er moddhe .. though tomader sathe amar temon chat hoinai .. but tomader ke forum dia chini .. and oitai amar jonno onek .. OVI and CORE er sathe age kotha hoise .. OVI chine amake bhalo moton .. CORE may be o amake chinte pare , amar ager nick gula holo FaFor & [V]aMPi[R]e. CorE er sathe amar 1 year age kotha hoisilo , asole kotha na, ektu jhogra type er .. server nia arki .. lol .. but tokhoni sob bhule gesilam ami .. karon keu kauke chinina jhogra kore lav ki .. core o temon kono response kore nai .. lol ..ar Banglacafe er Eros er sathe ami sob cheye besi kotha boli , jodi BC te jai .. And OVI .. OVI er sathe temon kotha hoina .. but soitani hoi ;p .. LoL .. Jai hok onek likhlam .. Keep posting guyz .. OvI korlo share .. tar tahmina ;p .. Baki roilo EROS, GOUROB , JUBAIR bhai :P .. aro baki sob administhrathors :P .. aso aso tomra kothai bau ra ?? share koro kichu  ! /|\ M3S$ WiD Da BE$t , D|3 LiKE t#E RE$T /|\ X•BLø0ЕX™  X•BLø0ЕX™ | |||||||||||||||||||
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fYro bhai - R baper na....,... Jid jinis ta onek valo.... mind fresh kore dei D:..... r kono kharap kotha bolbo na..... tao na boleo parbo na..... kisu meye ase jader ami vodro banglai ...... - 6 ta letter er gali dei..... common gali na uncommon....r aro valo english-e bolle bola jai cheater tyep er.... but np... baper na..... amio ei rokom ekjon ke chini..... she s$cks....... Kintu ekta jotil jinis deksen ? er jonno kintu amra notun kisu siksi.... Never belive a gurl..... maneh purapuri kaore belive kora thik na.... bola to jai na betir next step ki.... d:.... asen asen kulikola kori.... apni ami bhai bhai.... D:...... CorE bhai - life ta onek kharap...... kono manush kohkon pura jinis ta pai na......... r eita dekhe valo laglo je apni harai jan nai.... maneh oneke ase ei sob sojjo korte pare na..... onek kaz kore er jonno..... but its cool..... apni achen valoi eitai main point..... Amer kache onek kharap lage jokon suni ei type er kichu hoi.... Life ta pura faltu...... nisthur.....  | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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| /me kolakuliz OvI .. Yap.. Life Nishthur .. Ei porjonto ami amar Life e bhalo kisui pai nai .. Only amar parents er Ador and bhai bon er bhalo basa .. Dat'z all .. But, onno kichui pelam na .. jak ge , jar kopale ja lekha .. kisu korar o nai ;D ! /|\ M3S$ WiD Da BE$t , D|3 LiKE t#E RE$T /|\ X•BLø0ЕX™ X•BLø0ЕX™ | |||||||||||||||||||
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| knightwolf ..its sad bro ...don b upset ...tomader dujoner kotha porei mon kharap hoye gelo ....amar tao anek ta ai type ..tomar belay jeta meye koreche amar belay seta chele koreche ..jai hok ami anek e try korsi relation thaka obosthay maf kroe dite maf anek bar korechi o but last a r relation ta rakha possible holo na ...jai hok she jekhanei thak valo thak ....jokhon relation chilo kono din vabi nai take chara thakte parbo ba onno karo sate relation hobe but dis is da reallity so knightwolf time sob kichui thik kore dey r ovI keo ami eta bolchi don b upset n don curse dat gal ..etai may b udarota tomar j tumi take kisui bolo na just let her go ...u were honest so u ll get somethng good ...amio etai bissash kori ... §wëèt Îññô¢êñt Åñgêl | |||||||||||||||||||
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